Yesterday was one of the hardest days of my life. I was/am ready to give up and leave.
The best interest attorney assigned to Shannon pulled a no-show for our court time. Charging us both attorney time, while we were required to appear or go to jail. Justin’s lawyer pulled this emotional string with the Judge (I seriously think they are drinking buddies) saying he just is running out of money and cannot afford supervised time for me to spend with Shannon. It is total bullshit that my attorney did not stand up and object. The Judge played into it that my money is coming from a church so it’s subsidized for me and we should reduce the time or get rid of the visit supervisor lady that lets us go anywhere. We are supposed to provide free folks names to supervise now. What a bunch of crap – he caused this mess.
The psych assessor was/is not done with his report so could not provide any indication of who is lying or who is the better parent. But it doesn’t matter because the Judge is totally biased and against me and for Bednarz and Justin. It is such a waste of time and money.
My Mom and friends could not believe their eyes. Asked my lawyer why he didn’t object and he says he didn’t want to make the Judge angry. We are all scrambling today trying to think of next moves. Find another lawyer, report this Judge to the media, talk to my lawyer’s boss, what the hell is going to make someone in my case care about Shannon.
Jose – my paralegal friend from church is going to have a 3-way conference call with my attorney Monday and say Hey – if you don’t have the balls to stand up to these sleazebags in court then maybe we need to find someone else before giving you another $4k that you want (already got $8k). Mom feels I have lost and lost again. I feel the entire thing is a waste of time.
I have to look at Justin, Jane, his lawyer and the judge smirking at me now with every visit to the courthouse. Hate this state.
I had to have a supervised visit with Shannon last night after that and after working. We went to the mall, let her ride some rides and then ate at the RainForest Café. She was afraid of the fake gorillas. In the bathroom I told her she had better start telling her court appointed therapist the truth because her doctor told me she told her I lied and made her say what she told me at Christmas time. I reminded her that I never told her anything and told her not to say what her dad is telling her to say. Total lies about seeing pics of David’s kids wearing her pajamas and they are in college.
I am so frustrated and angry with having to hear her dad on our calls I am not even going to call her tonight. Supposed to on those days I don’t see her. It is ridiculous to be put through this for trying to protect her.